Pretending

Each day I try to pretend that I am a normal healthy woman.  Which is not the case. My body doesn't let me pretend or forget that I am battling for my life. It is a struggle each day. There is a pain in my back, hips, joints and most days I can't feel over 75% of my feet. It is a battle to learn how not to complain or grip. I am learning that I can be stronger than the discomforts and not let them bring me down. I say a prayer inviting God into my day. Asking for extra strength and comfort. Especially when I go to work. I love my job. I feel like I am making difference at the school I am working at. With my pending surgery coming up I am going to miss going to work. I learn something new every day that I am there. Sweet goodness! It's time to go to work.