Aches & Pains

It's not the best photo in the world. Look I have hair growing back! It's awesome! I had to pull out a new razor to start shaving my legs. Which is cool. Except it's growing in so fast I feel like a man who has to shave every day. I didn't have to do that before. Crazy! 

Went back to work today which was wonderful. I love a good solid routine. BUT....here it comes. I came home with my joints aching like hell. I am sure that this is what would feel like in hell. I haven't felt anything like this. All my joints including my finger joints, elbows, knees...especially my hips were achy. (here me sighing) It has been hard to get comfy. Even my amazing recliner was hard to sit in. 

Praying I can sleep well. 

Gratitude

Today at church we talked about Gratitude. Something I feel lots of these days. I have been blessed to have had so many people praying for me over the past few months. There have been flowers, and small uplifting packages arrive to cheer me up. My family has texted me. Encouraged me. When I would get on Facebook there are so many wonderful friends that have send me messages. I have been so blessed.

Thank you to all of those of you who continue to pray for me. Prayer has been such a wonderful gift to me.

Where I am at!

Fatigue hugs my body like a warm blanket. It has become a very familiar to me after months and months of chemo. Now 2 months after my last treatment my body still feels fatigue, aches, and pains. Even my digestive system is still working out the kinks caused by chemo. 

Tearfully I hugged Chris whining about wanting to feel healthy and well again just the other day. 

I am truly tired of being sick on and off every day in one way or another. 

Thanksgiving week I totally forgot that I am still not a hundred percent and completely overdid it. 

Then I was sick. I simply did so many activities throughout the week that by Friday I was so glad to have a day off. We had declared a pajama day for Friday. We didn't get dressed until 3 pm. Then by 6pm, I was back in pajamas with a tummy ache. 

Even today has been slow. Just what I needed. I want to decorate for Christmas. The tree is even up standing empty in our living room ready to be decorated. It will have to keep until another day. 

Funny Face & Sabrina

Deep down in my heart, I am a total romantic. I have a love for old movies. I remember watching old Doris Day movies and wanting to be her. It is fitting that I pass that love for old movies down to at least one child. This girlie loves Audrey Hepburn. We decided one day while I have been laid up to have a movie fest of only watching Audrey Hepburn. While watching I fell in love with her movies all over again. What an amazing actress? She really rocks.

Now, if you haven't seen Funny Face you really should watch it. You are in for a real treat.  It is a wonderful movie about what happens when an impromptu photo shoot happens in a bookstore. The storekeeper is thrown into the photo shoot. Well, the photographer notices something special about the storekeeper. What happens next is simply funny? So, watch it. If you are a romantic at heart like me you will love it.
      

Sabrina was the second of her movies that we watched that day. Let me share first that I have been a fan of the movie Sabrina for a long time. First time I saw it was on TV in 1980 something. When I discovered it on DVD I bought it. Only I bought the Harrison Ford version of it. When I found the DVD multi pack of Audrey Hepburn movies, minus Funny Face. I bought it right away for my sweet girl. It was fun to watch the original version. Another great love story about a girl growing up on the estate of a wealthy family. Her father is a servant. She falls in love with one of the wealthy families boys while growing up. Now the movies is what happens to that love... Wonderful story. Love it. Watch it.

Decisions Weighing on Me

Well, tomorrow I get to meet with a new Doctor. Radiation is his specialty. We will be talking about my need for radiation. My tumor in my right breast was 4.8 cm. Anytime a patient has a tumor that is 5 cm they have radiation. Since mine is close to 5 then there is thought that I should go ahead and have radiation. Not loving the idea.

Was really grateful to have a fun package arrive on Monday evening to distract me from my worries. It seems like that happens more and more these days. Just when I need it most a something arrives in the mail from flowers, blankets or other goodies. I am being loved by family and friends from all over.

Now back to tough decisions. I will be praying, pondering and praying some more on this matter before making a decision on whether or not to do radiation. I do believe I still have a choice.

Radiation

Yep, going on Thursday to talk about doing radiation. Had a lovely chat with a friend. Which gave me comfort. But, somehow I am still blue. Feeling blue about the idea of having to do radiation. Still my choice. Not sure what to do. It is still weighing on my mind. 

Other than that my follow up went well. Got exercises finally to start strengthing my arms. I did get permission to start driving again. But, the reality is I don't have enough mobility in my arms to be driving quite yet. AGH!! 

( me sighing) I will embrace the good. Wait to worry or fret over radiation or not after I hear the Dr. out. Until then I will plan Christmas. Daydream, finish up my books that I am reading and watching Blue Bloods.

Daunting No More

The day started off daunting. My first Sunday back to church since the surgery. Clothing simply doesn't fit. I feel weird without my breast still. Awkward. I was teary eyed. Fitting that it was lightly raining at the same time I was trying to figure out what to wear. I went with black. My comfort color. I have always loved wearing black. 

Once at church, I felt comforted by my family sitting all together, the music and the wonderful messages about Christ love. I was reminded that everyone goes to church to be comforted, loved and are accepted by God despite our imperfections. It was a blessing to be back and to have a nice lunch with members of our ward/congregation.

Now, what happened after church when we got home...

All I wanted to do was take a few photos.

Finally!!! A good one of me.